I have through the years been battling the chub! But I have issues that others know nothing about, they think I have a fork issue and that I just really love food and eating, and not working out. In reality I have a health issue, hashimoto's thyroiditis, that I have been battling for 20 years. When I first started having thyroid issues at age 20, I was a slim, in shape, 148lb woman, getting ready to enter the USMC OCS, running many miles a day, doing pushups and sit-ups, gung-ho for what life had in store for me. Then my diagnosis was given, low and behold my life spiraled out of control, my future was pulled from my grasp and denied me forever. (I received the dreaded Medical Disqualification from Military Service) My dream was a for a military career, that was what all my focus and training had been geared towards, when I lost that dream I lost that drive.
I became lost with no focus for my future, I was still functioning as an adult, working, dating, living, but watching my thyroid beginning to taking over my life. Watching the loss of muscle tone, the low metabolism, the lack of energy, and the overwhelming hunger. I watched the pounds start to add up on the scale. I went to the specialists, endocrinologists, surgeons, but in 20 years I have seen the pounds add up, the metabolism go to nothing, and the medications not work.
I had maintained for a period in my 20's, not going completely overboard, working out, I was at 250lbs, I still had a lot of confidence that I was sexy, so much so I became a plus size model while I lived in Minneapolis. I did that for a number of years. But when 30 came so did a lot of changes. I moved back home to Montana, I went from a huge city to a small town but I didn't let that stop me. I started graduate school and tried to take control of my life. But as I gained control in other areas my thyroid still wasn't under control.
My weight continued to rise on that scale, I became sedentary, I didn't want to work out anymore! Why should I? My dating pool went down the crapper. It takes a confident man to date a bigger woman, not a lot of confidence was abound in my little town. Then in 2007 I had an accident, I broke my ankle in several places and I broke my leg. After 4 titanium screws and 2 surgeries and a year in a wheel chair I was able to start moving around more. But guess what came with bed rest, you guessed it more pounds!
After all of that I was starting to move around more, hauling more around with me. I started having a lot of stress in my life and in 2009 it caught up with me and I took a blow to my health. I had a rare condition occur called Broken Heart's Syndrome, stress induced heart failure that mimics a heart attack! Can you believe it, I didn't know I could hurt myself by holding myself together in stressful situations. What could be so stressful you ask? Well I was taking care of my mom who was battling terminal cancer, I was taking care of my younger brother, the finances, the house and trying to work and go to graduate school all at the same time I didn't have time to be sick or stressed. But the Lord said sit back appreciate life and the time you have with those you love. Slow down. I had a minor gall bladder surgery and my heart stopped on the table. I figured out a valuable lesson, life is short live it to the fullest, love hard you never know when the day is going to be your last. Appreciate time with family, and try to live in a good way appreciating what the Lord has blessed you with. I learned my health is important, and that even though I was chubby I had clean arteries, thank god for that.
I went home from that and began walking and lowering my salt and food intake and I dropped some weight. About 2 weeks into being home, I reconnected with a old college classmate, who months later became my fiancé and by years end my husband. (That is a story for another day! Its a beautiful story!) By 2010 I had gained back what I lost, you know what they say you find love , happiness and pounds. My husband has never pressured me to be skinny or lose weight , he has encouraged me in all things, but I know he wants me to be around and healthy. He also is battling the chub, but his story is his own to tell.
I hit a rock bottom point recently which is what is inspiring me to write this blog. I stepped on the scale at the hospital and what stared back at me was frightening, it said 400lbs ( my mom used to say if I reached 350 I was a heifer and she should take me out and butcher me up!) That scale weight made me cry, I kept saying I'm a heifer, take me out and shoot me! My loving husband said do something about it, quit complaining, quit giving excuses and do it for yourself and be here for me. So that is when the solution came, do it by small changes make an effort, but live life still. I will have ups and downs I will fall and have to dust myself off. But I will make this journey over rocky terrain, I will beat this chub one pound at a time. Who is with me? One pound at a time!
After all of that I was starting to move around more, hauling more around with me. I started having a lot of stress in my life and in 2009 it caught up with me and I took a blow to my health. I had a rare condition occur called Broken Heart's Syndrome, stress induced heart failure that mimics a heart attack! Can you believe it, I didn't know I could hurt myself by holding myself together in stressful situations. What could be so stressful you ask? Well I was taking care of my mom who was battling terminal cancer, I was taking care of my younger brother, the finances, the house and trying to work and go to graduate school all at the same time I didn't have time to be sick or stressed. But the Lord said sit back appreciate life and the time you have with those you love. Slow down. I had a minor gall bladder surgery and my heart stopped on the table. I figured out a valuable lesson, life is short live it to the fullest, love hard you never know when the day is going to be your last. Appreciate time with family, and try to live in a good way appreciating what the Lord has blessed you with. I learned my health is important, and that even though I was chubby I had clean arteries, thank god for that.
I went home from that and began walking and lowering my salt and food intake and I dropped some weight. About 2 weeks into being home, I reconnected with a old college classmate, who months later became my fiancé and by years end my husband. (That is a story for another day! Its a beautiful story!) By 2010 I had gained back what I lost, you know what they say you find love , happiness and pounds. My husband has never pressured me to be skinny or lose weight , he has encouraged me in all things, but I know he wants me to be around and healthy. He also is battling the chub, but his story is his own to tell.
I hit a rock bottom point recently which is what is inspiring me to write this blog. I stepped on the scale at the hospital and what stared back at me was frightening, it said 400lbs ( my mom used to say if I reached 350 I was a heifer and she should take me out and butcher me up!) That scale weight made me cry, I kept saying I'm a heifer, take me out and shoot me! My loving husband said do something about it, quit complaining, quit giving excuses and do it for yourself and be here for me. So that is when the solution came, do it by small changes make an effort, but live life still. I will have ups and downs I will fall and have to dust myself off. But I will make this journey over rocky terrain, I will beat this chub one pound at a time. Who is with me? One pound at a time!
